The Angel of Death

THEANGELOFDEATH

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If you only have 10 days to live, what would you do?  Two days ago, an angel of death appeared in my bedroom, telling me that I only have ten days left in this world. He was a man that every girl dreamed of. But instead of being in a romantic movie, it was more like a horror film. He’s hunting me. He’s watching my every move, making me realize that my death is near. A 16-year-old girl like me wouldn’t know the right thing to do. Eight days left…..then I’ll die.

“Wake up, my princess,” a voice whispered. It was a voice that I pretty much hate since the 4^th day of August. I slowly opened my eyes, awaken by his sweet smile that could make a girl forget everything. When I came back to my senses, his eyes are still fixed on me. I was like a prisoner trapped in his black wings.

                It’s Saturday. Today, my family and I will be having a trip to my grandma’s house. She’s celebrating her 84^th birthday. Yeah, she will still live longer than me. It’s probably the right time to have a small gathering since I’ll be leaving soon, sadly. If there’s a little chance that I will live, I’ll take it.

                We arrived early in the afternoon. Grandma greeted us, wearing her favorite dress that Grandpa gave her last year… before he passed away. Grandpa.. I missed him. Maybe we’ll see each other in heaven? Will I go in Heaven or Hell? I didn’t know if I did good things during my entire life. I teased a lot of children back in third grade. I didn’t know what came into my mind. But one thing is for sure, I hate the fact that they make me remember that I don’t have a father. Where is he? I don’t know. If I could just have one clue to find him, I’ll search for him, because when I leave, nobody else would take care of my mom.

                A clue? A voice inside my head asked. I looked around and saw Seth laughing at me. So you could read minds now?! I exclaimed hoping that he’ll get my exact mood at the moment. How could an angel be so annoying yet so breath-taking? If you need something, all you have to do is ask. I could help you, you know? He whispered. Well, does he really expect me to trust him, the guy who just told me that I’ m going to die? He’s insane! If I could just strangle him, I’ll do it now. Too bad he has the strength of Batman! Maybe all angels are strong? Or I’m just unlucky to have him. I HEARD THAT! He exclaimed. I laughed.

                I looked at my grandparent’s photos in the living room. Grandma was very pretty during her days. She has short brown hair and her lips are red like roses. Grandpa, as I have known, loved her very much. I cried because I was there in the hospital when he breathed his last. And the last words he said were I love you. I was holding their photograph when grandma came into the room holding a cup of tea.

                “What did you do grandma… when he’s about to leave?” I asked.

                “What else, my dear? I spent every second with him. I loved no other man. It was a great pain that I encountered. Nothing matters the most than having him in my heart because I know that wherever I go, he will be with me,” she said wholeheartedly. I’m so envious with such love.

                Seth was standing beside me. His eyes are locked on those photographs. Is he thinking the same thing? I wonder if he also envies true love. But why is he like this? Something is different in his eyes. Deep inside, I wanted to know.

                Days passed by like seconds on my clock. I only got four days left. These past few days, I’ve become so serious. This is so unlike me. I’m a girl losing her color. I did ask Seth for help to find my father. And I found out where he is.

                I was standing five blocks away from his home, watching him from afar. When will he come out? I’m dying to see him. What does he look like? Do we have the same eyes? I’m so eager to see that man, my father. This is how I used my time, wait for the moment that we’ll finally meet…..after sixteen years of abandoning me.

                My hands were shaking. Tears fell when I saw him. It’s really him. But he is not alone. I used to think that there would be a happy ending someday between him and mom. I was wrong. He is happy now with another family. I don’t want to ruin his life so I just left. I left things behind me. Good thing he was holding my hand, Seth. At least there’s a reason not to cry because he’s here with me.

                The ocean. This is the only place where I could relax. It is the only place that I could forget everything. This is a special place for me, having an angel of death here makes it more special. We watched the sunset together and when I looked at him, he appeared like a dream.

                “Let me ask you one thing, do you like what you do?”

                He looked at me with eyes like rubies. “Watching everyone leave... isn’t a great thing at all.”

                “Then shouldn’t you stop what you are doing and live a happy life like everyone else?” I asked hoping to get a good answer.

                I hope I could do that. But this is the natural order of things, an angel of death would pick up a human’s soul, take it to the gates for judgment, leave and then get another assignment. Without us, there would be chaos. No one would know who should live or die. Things would be unbalanced, he answered.

                He’s poorer than me. I pity him. He couldn’t have the life he wanted. “But could you fall in love?” I asked once again. It took a long time for him to answer. This time, he didn’t look at me. He gazed at the clouds as if his thoughts were just like them, wandering in the vast world.

                “I’m human too, you know?” finally. I could fall in love, too. But eventually, I have to let her go. Seeing her die, kills me inside and that happens all the time. I’m more afraid than you are. Dying as a human, you still have a chance to live again here in this world. But for me, well, nobody knows, maybe I’m forever stuck like this. I realized that he is really far worse than me. “Then, if I die, will I see you again?”

                He looked at me surprised by what I said. If I do die and then live in another lifetime, I want to see him again. He doesn’t have to be alone. I would be willing to be by his side even if takes forever. He was speechless. But I know for sure that our hearts are now electric wires, there’s a connection between Seth and I.

                Last day. Every time I see mom at home, I hug her tight and then whisper I love you. Time, I thought I had it all, but now I realized that the time I have right now, isn’t enough to live a happier life. People come and go, eventually they will leave. Nothing is permanent in this world, not even love or life.

                How will I die? That got me curious all night but I enjoy Seth’s company. Leaning by his shoulder, watching the moon, it is one of the greatest experiences I had. I wasn’t thinking of death as another end, but a beginning of a brand new life.

                Seth and I were walking along the street when a truck came rushing in our way. Is this it? I thought. It is a painful death, maybe. I looked at him for the last time and he looked at me. I smiled like nothing’s wrong. And then I closed my eyes embracing death.

                Time stopped. When I opened my eyes, I was in a different place, between life and death. It wasn’t paradise yet but it surely looks like one. Seth! I called. Where are you?

                A white feather fell on my face. He appeared. But now he’s different. His feathers aren’t black anymore. So what does this mean?

                “Princess,” he said. I’m so happy to hear his voice. “I’m leaving.”

                “Shouldn’t I be the one leaving?” I asked.

                He walked closer and put his arms around me. I’m leaving, he whispered once again. You won’t see me for the rest of your life. I’m sorry, but I can’t bear to see the person I love leave once again. I love you. I love you that it hurts. Sorry. You’re the most precious girl I have ever met. When I saw your grandparent’s photos, I realized that I should face my feelings for you. I wouldn’t want to be apart and I’m willing to spend my every last second with you. Do you know? I have been in love with you for a long time now, since the first time I first laid my eyes on you. Too bad, this is really the end. He leaned on me and kissed me.

                I was crying. Why would he sacrifice his only life? I love you too is all that I could say. I hold on to his hands. Slowly, he disappears into the light. Its awesome how you can fall in love with a person you didn’t even notice the first time you met them. When will I see him again? I’d rather trap myself into his arms again.

                When I woke up, he wasn’t there anymore. Hours turned to days and days turned to months. Another year had passed and there’s no sign that he would come back.

                Autumn. While watching the ocean, I remembered him. He was beside me that time, when my world fell apart. I owe my life to the angel of death I madly fell in love with. At that same time, I saw him again. His wings are gone now. He looked at my direction. He walked towards me. He gave me the rose on his hands. Is this destiny giving us another chance? Love is beautiful. No matter what happens, it will bring you back to the person you’re meant to be with. Love knows no time, love knows no boundaries. This love is the reason of my existence.